Time is marching on a little too quickly these days. It’s nearly summer and I hardly remember spring, except for my middle daughter’s wedding, the highlight. She and her fiance chose to have a small, private wedding which took place outdoors. It was beautiful and special and a perfect reflection of their love for each other. My daughter’s mother-in-law captured all of it on video, including the sisters’ speeches which made my heart swell nearly as much as the ceremony did. I’m waiting to receive the link to this video to share with family and friends who were not in attendance.
And speaking of missing family members, when we first heard of their desire for a very small wedding, I felt a twinge of disappointment. What about all our loved ones who would not be there? But I think we’ve raised our children to “think outside the box” when it’s right for them, and this was one of those times. So in time, I usually feel a sense of relief when they exercise this right. I like to know they are doing what they think is right for them.
One thing I’ve learned from parenthood is how little I know. We can love them a lot and listen to them a lot and guide them, but ultimately it is encouraging our kids to follow their own inner guidance that is the true task of parenthood.
My youngest daughter told me that some of the best words I ever said to her were these:
I don’t know.
It’s your life to live. What do you think?
She said it left her with a sense of empowerment and excitement about her own life.
It’s a good reminder. I’m just a parent. Our children are each on their own unique journeys. I don’t want to play God with that.
I love you and I don’t know. A suitable parenting mantra, I think.
And the one and only piece of advice I recall ever giving my daughters about love was this:
Choose someone who loves you a lot.
Life throws enough curve balls and challenges. Your love life doesn’t have to be one of them.
Tomorrow is fifty days before my fiftieth birthday, which has inspired me to write exactly that post, tomorrow.(50 Days ’til 50). I considered a series, posting each day leading up to this birthday, but alas need to spend the time editing my memoir which I promised myself would be much more polished by the big 5-0.
Always having to make choices with time; such is life. But getting older makes me increasingly aware of this- that I am in fact making a choice at any given moment. I guess conscious choosing is a byproduct of adulting. Maybe that’s all life really is; one choice after the next. Even when things happen to us, we still get to choose, what now?
See you tomorrow!
P.S. *Please visit the site of Sarabeth Matilsky, a most adventurous mom of four. In her latest letter, she takes us through the decision to sell her home and travel with her family, and details the massive clearing out that took place. In a very short amount of time, she got rid of 95% of her family’s possessions. Bam. Now that is how you get it done: www.lifeisapalindrome.com